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Post by Dragonelle on Feb 9, 2009 17:24:16 GMT -5
Well, even if I only have 550 songs, I listen to a lot of music on youtube, and on the radio. I don't have enough money to buy 1183 songs for my iPod.
That's true, music is essential for life. And for me, I do completely absorb. I do, ecause when I listen to music, I do think. However, I kinda make little movies in my head, kinda like my own littl stories. And so, it's just anothr way I escape. Which, in all honesty I don't have that all much to esacpe from. I, mean I have my fair hare of hardships, however I have a lot of things to be thankful. I just wanted to make sure you don't think I have a horrible life.
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Post by IsleofAndyman on Feb 9, 2009 20:00:45 GMT -5
I don't use money... I use Limewire. If you play your cards right and are careful, you won't get a virus.
Some times I think of uses for songs but only when I'm really bored. Like movie scenes that they could play in or something. Good way to spend brain cells, too.
Nah, I don't think you have a horrible life. Don't think I do, either... I just wish it could be better.
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Post by Dragonelle on Feb 10, 2009 13:26:49 GMT -5
Oh, well that's cool. I've only used iTunes. However, my computer is my school, and I wouldn't know how not to get a virus, so I don't think I could use it. But I'm glad you can get them.
Yeah, it's just what I like to do. Haha, yeah it is a good way to spend brain cells.
Good, I'm glad you didn't think that. I didn't think you did either. I wish mine could be better too. There are a lot of things I would change if I could. But, I'm trying my best to look on the bright side, and all the good things in life. It's hard to do that sometimes, though.
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Post by IsleofAndyman on Feb 10, 2009 20:11:40 GMT -5
Using Limewire or a similar program at school is grounds for expulsion or suspension, depending on your institution and criminal record. Some people pirate thousands of songs - those are the ones that the RIAA tracked down.
I know what you mean. I was thinking of killing myself a while back, actually, but I decided that wouldn't solve anything. I looked at what I do have and I just need to be patient... I have a promising future ahead of me if I can do everything right. If I could marry Amanda... that would make my life amazing.
I had better stop before I start ranting about my fantasies...
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Post by Dragonelle on Feb 11, 2009 14:21:59 GMT -5
Ahh, well see I thought I had told you, I'm homeschooled, and I do school online through an all-online school program. So, my computer is literally my school, lol. So, I can't really take the change of getting a virus.
Yeah, I don't think I've ever thought of killing myself, but I know someone who is very close to me who has tried, and almost succeeded. I'm very glad you decided not to do that. You're very right, it doesn't solve anything, it just makes things worse. I also hope things work out with you and Amanda. I don't know her, but it sounds like you love her very much. I have a crush myself. He doesn't know I do, and I don't know if he ever will. I hope he does one day. He's a very nice, kind, Christian guy. Plus he's single.
Hehe, no problem I don't mind. I ranted about my fantasies too, lol.
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Post by IsleofAndyman on Feb 11, 2009 21:25:38 GMT -5
You may have told me, but I forgot. Do you like being homeschooled? There are pros and cons about it... it's harder to make friends, yet still very possible.
And I understand. I try to be careful... I always am online just because certain links are viruses and trojans and Rickrolls and crap like that.
Suicide is just a bad idea. It's a good way to permanently escape the world, but leave devastation behind. You should NEVER want a permanent escape - just play a game, listen to music, etc. and then think of what you do have in life. Life > death unless we're talking with murder sentences. Sometimes it's best to die instead of rot in prison for 70 years. Murderers are just evil people, though.
Amanda's the girl in my sig if it weren't obvious. I don't know her personally... YET. She was on two seasons of Survivor and she just really seemed like EXACTLY the girl I was looking for. I was in disbelief that I found her like that. I'm just hoping she replies to me on MySpace and I can pull the right cards and end up on top... I just hope. </rant>
There is absolutely nothing wrong with having a crush. Is this guy your friend? If you want to make a move... try to do so. You won't get anywhere by sitting back. I've never intended on sitting back - I need to meet my goals. Although I hated Tales of Symphonia 2, this quote from it, which is reiterated many times, sums it up nicely: "Courage is the magic that turns dreams into reality."
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Post by Dragonelle on Feb 12, 2009 15:54:36 GMT -5
Yeah, I thought I had, lol. Yes, I absolutely love being homeschooled. I don't mind not having many friends, I never have hdmany friends, even when I wasn't homeschooled. From what I've heard about public schools, I don't ever want to go there. Plus my mom doesn't get me up till 9:00am, I don't have to get dressed, so sometimes I stay in my PJs. Plus I can work at my own pace, and if we want to go somewhere for the day, I can just to double the day before, so we can go. I can also get really ahead, and get done super early. It's awesome, and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Yeah, I try to be careful too. It helps that my dad knows a lot about computers, and does scans almost every night to protect our computer.
No, it is never a good idea, you are right. Like I said, I have never thought of killing myself, but I have felt like getting away for a very long time. I do pretty much what you said, only a lot of times I pray as well. I also talked to people about, and get it out of my system. I also agree murderers should be killed. It even says so in the Bible.
Ahh, I see. I actually didn't know you were talking about the girl in your sig. I thought Amanda was someone you knew personally. Well, I don't know if a celebrity will go out with you, and that is nothing personal to you, it's just most celebrities don't date fans. However, she might, I don't know. I tried to contact a celebrity, not to date, he's already married and way older than me, but just to talk to him. He never wrote back, and I think he deleted his Myspace. I hope you get a reply.
Yeah, he's my friend. I met him at church, and we message back and forth on Facebook almost everyday. I really don't know if I'll make a move. I have no idea if he likes me, and if he ends up saying no, everyone in my church would know about it. I would be mortified, and might stop going. Which would be really bad. So, I don't know, I'll just have to see. That is a really good quote, though.
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Post by IsleofAndyman on Feb 13, 2009 20:05:25 GMT -5
Sorry I wasn't on yesterday. I had an insanely busy day and my brain had to be turned off in the evening, so I forgot to come here... oops.
Yep, you know exactly what being homeschooled is like. It would be great to work at your own pace to a certain extent - you still have to get stuff done. Getting up at 9:00 would be awesome. Not having to miss anything when you're sick or on vacation would be great too.
I liked being in public school, though. It helped me grow socially - something I desperately needed. If I were homeschooled, I'd probably have become a total loner and have never met anyone. It would just have been bad. There's also the variety that public schools present - you have more options that you can't get through homeschooling. You can't do Computer Art at home unless you have a lot of money to kill AND the knowledge of the software. Your parents can only do so much, and not all parents are made out to homeschool their children. Plus them having to be home all the time reduces the family's income, which is instrumental in times like this. I hate depressions.
In summary: I like things about each, but public school is just better in the long run for me. Homeschooling is probably better for you - just depends on the person. Some public schools ARE pretty awful. Teachers that pick favorites, ridiculous rules, etc. Being at home has no strict dress code, so you can wear a hat while you're learning. I really don't get the hat prevention rule, their excuse is lame. "You can hide drugs under them" is just... stupid. It's pretty easy to detect if someone's using their hat to conceal something.
You need to do virus scans at least twice a week, preferably more if you use the Internet as often as I do. Not doing it... well, your computer is much more likely to die.
As I said, I'm not an overly religious person, so using the Bible as evidence has no bearing on what my opinion is. But killing murders is a fair punishment - they took a life away, they should have theirs taken away as well. Eye for an eye.
There's just something about Amanda... I can feel it. After a certain incident that I'm not going to get into details about (do not even try to pry, I'm not going to budge), I vowed to never fall in love with anyone I saw on TV. Then Amanda came along... the more I saw of her, the more I thought Wow... she's like my dream girl. I've pretty much come to the conclusion that she IS the one I'm looking for. I just hope I'm right and we can meet and that it all works out. Getting her away from that loser Ozzy is going to be my biggest problem after meeting her... I don't even understand why she likes him. He's an arrogant douchebag.
Amanda has already acknowledged my existence. She replied saying that she'd read my letter which was overly length and accepted my friend request. It's a relief to know that she knows that I exist... if I play my cards right, I may end up on top. I just hope I get a detailed reply, but she's a busy girl.
Who was this celebrity you contacted, or aren't you going to say? I understand if you want to keep it a secret. I have my secrets, too, as you can see.
I know you're religious, so let me spin it like this: If God intended for something to happen, it will. That doesn't mean that you should hold back. Here's a good strategy: Ask him to come hang out or something. Don't ask him to watch a movie, have a 1-on-1 or a 2-on-2 sorta thing, something social, yet not exactly a date. 2-on-2 might be the best idea - you'll each have a friend along and won't be out of your comfort zone. Use this "hanging out" thing to gauge whether or not something may happen. Of course... you won't get anywhere by doing nothing. I'm attacking my own situation head-on but not being overly aggressive. If I was like "OMG I LUV U" to Amanda she'd think I was a creep - that's the last thing I want.
Sorry for the really long post, I had a lot to say.
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Post by Dragonelle on Feb 19, 2009 18:35:52 GMT -5
haha, that's fine, it took me longer to write you!
Yep, I do love homeschooling. I don't care if I'm a little bit of a loner. I don't mind, for me it's worth it to be homeschooled. My mom is definitely one to homeschool. Her and I are inseperable, and she's disabled, so she can't work anyway. I love her. I think that no hats rule is stupid too.
Yeah, I think my dad does a scan almost every night. He takes good care of our computer.
Well, about the whole bible not giving you basis for you opinion, you quote you say says it might. Exodus 21:23-25 "But if there is serious injury, your are to take life for life, eye for eye, tooth for tooth, hand for hand, foot for foot, burn for burn, wound for wound, bruise for bruise. Deuteronomy 19:21 "Show no pity; life for life, eye for eye, tooth fot tooth, hand for hand, foot for foot." And for one that actually deals with what we're talking about: Leviticus 24 17, 20 "If anyone takes the life of a human being, he must be put to death. Fracture for fracture, eye for eye, tooth for tooth, As he has injured his neighbor, so he is to be injured."
I really hope it all works out with Amanda. However, I didn't know she had a boyfriend.
I don't mind telling you. It was a Christian singer named Marshall Hall. I really wish I could meet him. He's such a great guy.
I might do that. I really don't know. In some ways, I just don't want to deal with it all, and forget I ever liked him. It's kinda hard when whenever I see him, it becomes all too clear I still do like him. *sigh*
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Post by IsleofAndyman on Feb 19, 2009 21:32:33 GMT -5
I'd bet it sucks for your mom to be disabled. What exactly happened?
That's good. Prevention is the best policy for stuff like this.
I use that quote not to quote the Bible but to quote Hammurabi's Code from Ancient Babylon. The Bible has no basis on that - it wasn't even the first thing to use that saying. Things did come before the Bible, and I'm allowed to believe things that ARE in the Bible even if I don't strictly abide by it. I didn't even know it was in the Bible.
I don't even know if Amanda is still dating that loser. I sincerely hope not, for her sake. I have to do something...
Never heard of Marshall Hall, probably because he's a Christian singer. I don't really follow religious music like at all.
If you're too afraid to make a move, you'll probably not end up anywhere in life. If it goes sour, see it as a learning experience. There are good things in failure - you learn more from failure than you do victory.
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Post by Dragonelle on Feb 21, 2009 16:38:16 GMT -5
Well, nothing happend suddenly. She has a bone disease, and she also has Bi-Polar, which if you don't know is where you have very extreme mood swings. So, because of those, she can't work. Which, it's true we don't have a lot of money. However, it does give her time to homeschool me, and it gives her 100% medical coverage. For each prescription, she pays 1 to 2 dollars. So, it's really not that bad. I figured you didn't mean to quote the Bible. Not many people do know that the Bible is where that quote is from. Just like the quote "good Samaritan." That quote is from the Bible. I do agree you can use sayings from the Bible, even if you don't strictly abide by it, I was just showing you something I thought was interesting. I won't get nasty, and I won't start a fight, I just want to tell you that I do not believe anything came before the Bible. Well, let's hope she's not dating him. Because if she is, it'll be harder to get her to like you. I didn't think you would have heard of him. That's why I didn't say his name in the first place. But I don't mind telling you. Here's a link to what he looks like: www.gaither.com/bin/galImg/hiRes/029_marshall_hall/marshalhall.jpgIt's a really big picture, so I hope your computer does what mine does, and downsizes it when it loads. Yeah, I suppose your right. However, even if I knew he liked me, my mom wouldn't let me date anyway. Plus I don't know if I would want to date right now. We'll just have to see.
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Post by IsleofAndyman on Feb 21, 2009 23:43:40 GMT -5
That really sucks... :/ Bi-polar personalities are really, really scary sometimes. Jeckel and Hyde, anyone? I'd hate to have to deal with that. And the bone disease is really bad, too. $1-2 for a prescription is really reasonable.
Uh... things did come before the Bible. You're pretty ignorant of history if you believe otherwise. Hammurabi's Code was long before the Bible and has been proven to have existed. You're basically saying that Ancient Egypt, the dinosaurs, all kinds of things before Christ didn't exist. That's really, really screwed up and I pity you for thinking that.
I can settle for being friends with Amanda and jump at the right time. She'll warm up to me... I just... I love her and I want to remind her what love is. She's out of Ozzy's league - he's an arrogant jackass.
Looks like a nice guy. Wouldn't have been able to identify him if I didn't already know his name.
According to your profile, you're 15. You should probably wait until you can drive until you start dating, but trying to be friends with that guy first may be a good move to determine if it'll work out. You don't have to be fancy just yet.
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Post by Dragonelle on Feb 22, 2009 14:17:46 GMT -5
Yeah, it can get pretty hard to deal with. She's just fine most of the time, it's just every now and then, she goes into a mania. They only last about a week, then it's all over. However, in that week, it's very hard. Yeah, what's happening with her bones is her vertabrae are fusing together. She's already lost about three inches because of it. But yeah, it is a really good price for her meds.
Ok, maybe the Bible isn't the first thing made. HOWEVER the things said in the Bible, were the first things to happen. God created the earth, and everything in it, including us. And no, I don't believe in the dinosaurs, and if I do, they certainly aren't billions, or millions of years old. The earth is 6 to 10 thousand years old. And don't you dare pity me!! I don't need pity for believing in the Truth! I'm really, really going to try and not get mad, especially because I am to show God's grace, so I'm going to leave it at that.
I take it you don't like Ozzy, huh? And could you please not cuss? You may not think that it is a cuss word, but I'd like you not use use it please.
Yeah, he is sooo sweet. He just left the band he was in, and I'm sooo mad! He has such a great voice, such talent, but he said he was more comfortable being at home, and ministering in his own church. But I am going to miss him.
This is true, I am 15. I will try and be his friend, I'm already starting to. I don't think I'm going to try anything fancy for a while.
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Post by Ravuscale on Feb 22, 2009 14:49:08 GMT -5
Uh... things did come before the Bible. You're pretty ignorant of history if you believe otherwise. Hammurabi's Code was long before the Bible and has been proven to have existed. You're basically saying that Ancient Egypt, the dinosaurs, all kinds of things before Christ didn't exist. That's really, really screwed up and I pity you for thinking that.
(While this remains true please keep a sensitive outlook for your fellow forum goers, there is no need to put it in the tone that you did by making it sound insensitive. No I do not follow a religion either I just respect others decision to like you should respect her's. I am 20 as well and was picked on as a kid and can tell you all kind of horror stories if you want)
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Post by IsleofAndyman on Feb 23, 2009 13:47:34 GMT -5
I'm glad that you've learned to deal with it. Not sure if I could. Sounds hectic.
You don't believe in facts? Wow. That's pretty shocking. And you think that's the truth...?
Get some help. You need it.
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